Thursday, April 2, 2009

Where did we lose our self expression?

You must be thinking what the h*%# this guy is asking? Yes! I repeat the question ‘Where did we lose our self expression?’

Well… I just loved this evening’s bus journey from office. Not because it was a comfortable ‘BMTC Volvo’ drive, but it was because of the three lovely kids Aditi, Gagan and Deepthi. I do not know any of these kids but by the time I reached my bus stop, I was totally refreshed!

Like every day, we (Amaresh and I) took the Volvo bus 500-k which comes near our office at 5.05 pm and as usual it was crowded and we did not get to sit until we reached Silk board junction. It was a hectic day and we were stressed out. As soon as we got the seat, I was feeling sleepy and I actually slept off till Banashankari (BSK). Our great bus driver was playing old kannada music which added exponentially to my sleep. After couple of stops from BSK, I heard loud noise and thought a big crowd entering the bus and then I realized that it was Aditi, Gagan and Deepthi and two ladies. Aditi was the youngest (may be of 4 years age) of all the three and Deepthi was the eldest (may be of 6 years age). Gagan is Deepthi’s younger brother (may be of 5 years age). I came to know about their names because I was watching them like watching my favourite show ‘Tom & Jerry’. All three of them were absolutely cute. Most purified and double refined form of cuteness!!!

Both the ladies sat together and these three kids took one full seat (2 chairs) and sat next to each other. All they were discussing was about the Volvo bus. All three of them wanted the window seat. So they started fighting which made Gagan to get up from that seat and luckily there was another empty seat and he went and sat next to the window and started staring at both Aditi and Deepthi. I am sure this Gagan will become a crazy guy in the future! The reason is he wanted Aditi to sit next to him and finally he pulled her next to him and to prove that he is a boy, he sacrificed his window seat to her. Now Deepthi became alone. After couple of minutes, there were hardly a few passengers in the bus and most of the seats were empty. Now all three of them decided to take window seats and they were enjoying the window view. Suddenly Deepthi started playing a game. She said whenever driver applies the brakes, she will move to the next seat. Gagan and Aditi too followed the same. After a while Aditi got bored and angrily said ‘am not playing it as it is not good’. Gagan was adventurous as he was doing lot of gymnastics like one leg on Deepthi’s seat and the other on Aditi’s seat, he was trying to do the bar exercise and was trying to jump. Although I wanted to tell him to be careful, I just kept watching his play. What can his mother do? She tried to control him three times and finally gave up. These kids are always crazy like this (even I was like this); they will not listen to anyone. They just speak their mind and they just do what they like. At some point, they started shouting as if all the other passengers in the bus are deaf people and cannot hear them properly.

Huh! What a show for me. Finally our stop came and we had to get down. Gagan and Deepthi also got down with their mother at our stop. And they were saying ‘bye bye’ to Aditi. And I could see Gagan’s sad face with his hand waving at her for 5 minutes!

Phew! While I was walking back home, I was thinking about my childhood days where I used to have the 100% self expression; if I think about our status now, do we even have 1% of it? (But I am still 100% self expressive with few of my friends and they know what I mean :) ). I remembered a workshop which I attended 3 years back on “Self Expression and Leadership Program” with Landmark education. The objective of that workshop was to get back the self expression which we have lost and with that self expression try winning people in life. Our coach in the workshop even behaved like a kid in front of us and we enjoyed the sessions very much as we were speaking our mind for few days. Good initiative isn’t it?

Do you think that is possible in our lives now after crossing 20s and 30s? 1st thing that comes to mind before you say something is “what if the other person takes me in a wrong way?” “What if I he/she feels bad” “what if I look bad instead of looking good”. That’s the end of our self expression. I think we do not even think of being 100% self expressive because of so many constraints and many meanings we create around our own expressions. Why? Why cannot we be like Aditi, Gagan and Deepthi? Why cannot we speak our mind? Why cannot we do what we like? Or maybe even Aditi, Gagan and Deepthi will lose their self expression once they grow up in this chaotic world. Who knows?

But where do you think we lose that self expression? Can we search for an answer for this question?

Please do not try Google to search!!! Is it not important for us to be self expressive to be happy in this life?

Srik

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

VGKK… a tribal venture!


Finally we did it!
This trip to B R Hills was pending since almost 2 months. Thanks to our Doc that he could organize this trip to VGKK (Vivekananda Girijana Kalyana Kendra) at B R Hills. On Jan 28th, after dropping one of our colleague at the airport, we met our Doc’s friend Dr. Prashanth who works for Karuna Trust health initiatives. Since he was going to attend a conference in Srilanka and we could not discuss with him much on that day. He recommended us to visit him once he is back from his conference and he invited us to VGKK, B R Hills where he takes care of some of the health programs. Since we had not seen B R Hills, we accepted his invitation without any second thought and we promised to organize for the same on his return from Srilanka.

Opportunity knocks only once! so we did not want to miss it. We kept planning for this trip since then and finally we had the dates and team fixed. It’s the same Kodachadrigaa’ team (Doc, TS, Srivatsa and I) again. Srivatsa’s ‘black panther’ (Ford Fusion), his ‘golden eye’ (Canon camera), guest house stay at VGKK… made us feel excited about our weekend event.

We started from Bangalore on Saturday morning at 8.00 Am and reached B R Hills at 11.30 Am. Tatte Idli at Bidadi, Srivatsa’s rally drive, Kannada songs, TS’s PJs, Doc’s marriage worries, were few of the highlights of the journey till we reached B R Hills. It is so true that communication gap exists everywhere; we were in a remote hill station and there was no communication sent to VGKK on our visit to book the guest house. After all the drama from the admin in-charge Mr. Arun at VGKK (though we had to make couple of calls to Dr. Prashanth), finally there was a positive sign that we would get the guest house. It was a bit of relief for us because our plan was to stay there overnight and learn about the place for 2 days. He also made one of his staff members Mr. Manjunath who works as a teacher to take us around the campus and introduce us to all the activities of VGKK.

Without getting into too much of details, I will just share the learning exercises we experienced during the trip. Hope there is some benefit to all those who read this blog as well.

1. VGKK… activities at its best
I must say these tribal people are lucky. 25 years back B R Hills was just a tribal village where people were seen only in pain. Thanks to Dr. Sudarshan, the founder of VGKK and its initiatives because of which we can see a Tribal hospital, roads, education environment and above all the earning capacity of the tribal citizens have been increased with the technology resource centre as a base.

As we walked into the campus, it was like we are entering in to totally a new world. There was a tribal hospital at the entrance. This hospital serves tribal people of many villages around B R Hills. Of course the services are free of cost. There are lot many initiatives like telemedicine, psychology counseling to understand mental patterns of villagers, in-patient, out-patient care, mobile services to the tribal settlements, laboratory, x-ray facilities etc.

And then the next set of buildings and beautiful cottages were for education. They have a tribal school which gives free education to the tribal children. It is a residential course and the children get to stay in the beautiful cottages. They have all types of facilities like canteen, sports, science labs, library and many more.

The whole campus is energy efficient. Solar energy is getting used to the maximum. And also a lot of low cost methodologies used in building structures and the campus development. I do not think whether I got such good facilities for my school education. But these tribal children are lucky enough to have access to the VGKK.

2. Honey…pickle… silk weaving…!
I am sure you will be wondering why I am saying these names. Well… these are the activities of the vocational training centre (VTC) at VGKK.

There are vocational trainings which are being executed in the campus which also gives commercial returns for sustainability. We met the head of the VTC Mr. Venkatesh who explained us on all the different trainings they offer to the tribal people depending on the demand for the skill. One such skill which was on demand during our visit was silk weaving. They have all the equipments and set up for the manual weaving and the silk threads are just rolling and rolling and rolling every day. Lucky those who are undergoing this training as they will have a skill for their livelihood once they are trained her for 6 months. There were quite a few people who were undergoing this training.

Also VTC, as commercial activities for its sustainability, has two small scale food processing units. One is honey making (Prakruthi Honey is the name) and the second is the pickle making unit. Since B R Hills is a tourist destination, these products will find a way out of these units. They sell them at a modest profitable price and share the profits among the entrepreneurs. All of us bought honey bottles.

Major challenge, the only challenge for all the vocational training institutions are that the marketing of goods. It is extremely difficult to sell the products produced by identifying the right market place. Export is the only option but it needs extensive financial support and branding mechanisms.

I wish them best of luck for their marketing and sustenance.

3. Dodda Sampige… God of nature!Our next visit was to a place called Dodda sampige. To visit this place, one should take the permission from the forest department (Range Forest Officer) as it is a place inside the wild forest range. Once they give permission, a forest guard will be with you until you complete the trip. So we did the same and we trekked 8 km to the Dodda Sampige tree. It was such an uplifting experience for all four of us as we liked the trek inside the forest very much. Even though we heard some wild animals roaring in the jungle, we were thrilled to be present there. There were many tribal children who came there just to beg for money. We started talking to them and they were feeling shy to talk to us and share their problems. When I asked about them going to a school, they said they have a school to go but none of the teachers are ready to come there and teach! What a tragedy! All they were chanting was “Kasa kodu” (meaning ‘give me money’).

We reached the place in an hour from the place we started. And there was a group from Bangalore (group of 17 women) performing pooja to the 800 year old Sampige tree. Yes! Even we were surprised to learn that the tree was 800 year old. It had a huge base with huge trunk and over 800 years of its life, it had lost two of its branches. Only one was remaining but still it was very huge.

This tree is the god for a tribal group called Soligas. They worship this tree and they believe in nature. There was a person by name Ranganath Sharma who explained us on the belief Soligas had in the nature and the reason they used to worship this tree. It is a very old tradition. Since forest was the home for most of the tribes, they believed in nature a lot. For any event whether it is good or bad, they used to worship this tree. And for every event, they believed in planting a tree. Amazing isn’t it? I wonder how many trees we would plant in our lifetime and what will be the occasion?

We were thrilled to learn this capital idea of performing pooja to a tree and planting trees on every event they used to conduct. I guess only because of them, we have the thick and lively forests even now.

Can we all plant a tree every year? May be on our birthdays? Or any occasion? Think over!

4. A commitment or a sacrifice?
Since the whole trip was organized based on Dr. Prashanth’s recommendation, we thought of meeting him in Mysore on Sunday evening. We left B R Hills on Sunday afternoon and started our journey to Mysore. We reached Mysore very soon but because we had our Doc who knew Mysore very well from his college days, he took us round and round and round to reach the place which Prashanth wanted us to go. Finally our smart Doc, called his dear friend Prashanth and requested him to meet us at a place which is a known place for both of them. Finally we met the other doctor who took us to the M G Road of Mysore (Kalidasa street – even he is a bachelor; now you know why Kalidasa street for all 5 unmarried bachelors). He was apologetic to us because of his unscheduled work he could not be with us for 2 days.

We went into a café and ordered some snacks and started our discussion. The objective of the discussion was to explore the feasibilities for a long term health initiative for Chickballapur district where we have our NGO operations. Doc initiated the discussion by asking Prashanth on Karuna Trust’s activities and what Prashanth is actually focusing on. Prashanth gave us detailed report on his activities and his commitment to the community health initiatives. We were pleased to learn that he has such a wide knowledge on the community health and primary health activities. The whole NRHM (National Rural Health Mission) activities are in his brain cells. Hats-off to his commitment towards the needy community. The reason for me to say this is there are many doctors who are busy in their own world. Hardly a few devote their full available time to the community health assisting the poor. We have seen and pleaded so many of them to do half a day job in the village we are working but we did not succeed even once.

Prashanth detailed us on few of the new initiatives of NRHM and asked us to go through the NRHM initiatives which are displayed on its website. We have enough work now and we need to work on targets before we meet the Joint Director of Health at the Vidhana Soudha. Prashanth also offered us to take us to Dr. Sudarshan once. Before that we have enough homework to do.

The learning here was Prashanth’s commitment. I do not know whether it is a sacrifice but he is doing the right thing to do. All it takes is the ‘Social Quotient’ a person has in his heart. Bravo!

That was the end of our thrilling memorable 2-day breathtakingly beautiful trip to B R Hills. As always, we did get some good photography experience as well. Since Srivatsa was bored of our discussion with Prashanth, he drove his panther to Bangalore in 90 minutes. Wow!

Hope you all enjoyed reading our learning experiences! You are welcome to join us for more such events!

Srik

Monday, March 16, 2009

Joy of waiting!

Well… it was a dream for all of us
that, one day we will reach there…
now it’s time! It’s our time now…
to say! We will be there!
excitement every day;
anxiety at its peak!
Sailing through the time
and it’s like waiting for ‘our time’!

One by one the days are gone…
looking at the calendar everyday!
dates are real but the dreams are yet to be!
sure of the time! and this will be ours…
Every moment feels inspiring
all of us dream one dream
we have a long time to wait
It’s the joy of waiting!

Preparations are ON!
and communication at its best!
amidst our routine journey,
working on our dreams…a tough job!
all of us wait for the progress!
Perhaps! That’s our feel good factor…
every day is a progress and
every moment is an achievement…
all in the joy of waiting again!

We will wait… we will wait
till the day… we say…
We are here… and this was our dream”!

Srik
22:35
Dedicated to “Mission Sarpass”
For more details on "Sarpass": http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sar_Pass_Trek

Thursday, March 12, 2009

Life...Over the time!

12-Mar-09

Everything in life is time bound. Is it not? Perhaps! Every one of you will want to add some more hours to our existing 24 hours day. But even then… will it be enough? I do not think so. The reason for me to write this post is very simple (do not think, I just had time to write it) that I am not liking the expressions of ‘no time’.

I have everything else but for time! Have you heard of people saying this? So why is time required then? Anyway! It’s just that ‘time’ has taken our lives for a free ride. Today evening I got down from the bus and was walking home; there comes this little guy asking for time. He stays near my house. He asked “Excuse me! Can I know the time please?” and I said “its 7:00 pm sharp”. The guy started running and out of curiosity I asked him “why are you running?” he stopped and he reaction was “Why were you running in the morning? I said “that’s because i was getting late and I had to catch my 7.15 Volvo”. He just smiled at me and said “it’s getting late for my tuitions now” and ran away.

Early from the bed till you go back to sleep, you operate over the time. I need to catch the bus to office at 7.15 for that I need to get up early and forcefully get to the bus stop. Reach office ‘late’ everyday as the bus will never be ‘on time’ or there would be a traffic jam and the bus will be stuck in the jam for a ‘long time’. Responses to our colleagues will be like “give me some time I shall revert back to you”; there will be a ‘deadline’ of 24 hours for any process and they call it as ‘turnaround time’. Without peacefully having lunch, we will keep saying I have very ‘less time’ today to complete my work. By the time we realize if we missed anything for today, it will be time to catch the bus again; 8 hours working time is over for the day. Still! There will be calls scheduled in the evening as we work for ‘US time’ (as if we have all the time in the world) and we try fixing the same. It’s like, “can we have the call at 10 AM EST?” oh no! by the time I reach home, it will be 10 AM EST. Catch the bus, come home and without even talking to anyone at home, you will get into a call and end up spending few more hours. Sometimes end up waiting for the calls without doing a thing! After which have dinner (again at abnormal time) and go to bed. Before sleeping you will think, oh boy! Never realized how the time passed today; tough long day! End of the day! You would have missed a lot of good things like talking to parents, friends, reading books, writing, things that you really like! I mean those things you REALLY LIKE!

The reason for missing things you like is because “you did not have enough time”. Back again to the basic equation of “over the time”! It is very silly that for a lot of questions we give the same answer. Questions like why haven’t you shaved today? Why didn’t you cut your nails? Why are you late? You were supposed to call me yesterday but why didn’t you? Why did not you complete this? The answer is the same. There are many questions like this. Sometimes I get warnings from my friends like “You were supposed to do this for me yesterday” and they become angry on me for which the only answer I can give is…

Everything around us is time bound. Every work we do is time bound. Perhaps! The reason we are under such a traumatic recession is because we have done so much to save time and now we do not have enough work to do. May be time management is the cause for this recession. If everything was delayed, people would’ve stayed at their job without losing it! (my analysis lol do not quote this anywhere)

I do not know who invented time? Time was not invented, at least not in the conventional sense. In fact, time does not exist at all, not in any way. Time is merely a convention of thought and conversation. If time actually existed, it could be measured and quantified by something that cannot be suspended.

I read the following in some article and found interesting to quote here: “The world is full of silliness created for the convenience of communication and enterprise. The moment you need something to be real, you risk falling into the illusion. The illusion serves a convenient purpose. It need not be believed in though.”

That is how I believe we have fallen flat for time! time! And time again.

I just feel like not wearing my watch (however I have mobiles which show time and laptop which shows time) these days. I do not want to give reason as I do not have ‘time’. Do you think it is possible?

Well at least I will take a break for few days and spend all the hours without looking at the clock and fixing up the time for any activity. Yeyeye! what an idea sirji?

Well… its ‘time’ again for me to sleep as I need to get up early! :(

Monday, February 23, 2009

A Commitment…delivered!

22-Feb-2009

Even though today was a tiring day for me, it was one of the memorable day in my life. I went back to my childhood days and recollected many fond memories of my childhood holiday visits to my granny’s place – a small village called Budili in Hindupur district of Andhra Pradesh. It is almost 150 km from Bangalore.

My dad was proud having constructed a small house there which was ready to occupy and he had arranged for the house warming and Pooja. He was angry with me that I had not visited my granny since 4-5 years. So my parents wanted and they warned me to visit the event without fail. I had promised them that I would make it. Old house where my granny used to live was in a very bad shape because of the rains last year. I was happy that my dad could build a new house for my granny! Bravo!

Today I got up very early and since I was going to travel by bike, I thought of taking TS along with me. We started our journey from Bangalore at 7 Am. As we were travelling, I was telling TS about my childhood days and my visit to granny’s place. The new highway (NH-7) was just amazing and the speedometer reading reached 100kmph many times. We thought of having breakfast once we reach Budili and hence we just filled ourselves with tender coconut and cookies. And my mom had asked me to get some sweets; I remembered about it when we reached Chickballapur and picked up a packet of Haldirams!

It was a long ride of 3 hours and was unbelievable that I could not recognize any place on the way because of the new highway project. I was searching for the ‘Kodikonda checkpost’ stop from where we used to take bus to our village. It had disappeared. And I was searching for the right turn we used to take and it was totally changed. Luckily we were on the right way and I could recognize the village entrance. TS was making fun of the village name and he even told few of his friends about it. As soon as we entered the village, people were looking at us in a very strange manner and we were not surprised with that. After the great welcome into the village, we reached our newly built home. It’s a very small house of around 200 sft and sufficient for one person to live comfortably. By the time we reached, the Pooja was over and my parents were busy preparing for the breakfast. I introduced TS to my granny and my cousin brother who had come down from a very long distance just for the Pooja.

All of them were very happy of me visiting them after a long time. There were many people started walking in to see me and greet me. When you are the grandson of a very famous personality in the village, you would get the same respect from the villagers. They used to call me also “swamy” which means we belong to the family of priests and they call us as "Brahmins" in the village; also they call our house as "Brahmin's house". I do not know what it is though! I was even forced to talk to them in Telugu. We had our breakfast and went into the old house. Our old house was very big and it was just awesome which is now in a pathetic shape. I saw a lot of photographs of our relatives and recollected old memories. There was a swing on which we used to play; luckily the swing is still in a good condition and I do not mind getting it from there to Bangalore some day. Unfortunately I did not have my camera so I had to take pictures from my mobile phone’s camera. It was a very different experience for me which I just cannot express my feelings in words.

My sister wanted us to see the river and the temple which we used to go everyday during those days. Even though there was no water, we went there just to see it and get the feel out of it. It was as good as it used to be but for the water. If there was enough water flowing in the river, it would’ve been wonderful. I still remember the amount of fun we used to have during our visits there. There are lot of changes in the village including the number of houses, the agriculture crops, industries around etc., this was the positive change and the change for development.

I got to know a lot about the place “Amalladinna” and its history from my brother Ramana and he promised to send me the book on the same. Most of my friends ask me about my last name and I keep answering them that it’s just a place in Andhra Pradesh. But it’s not just a place; there is a very good story behind it which I will explain in my next post. We had the delicious lunch at 1.30 and started from there. My granny wasn’t happy about me leaving so soon and she wanted me to stay there overnight for which I had to give some reasons and get her approval. We left there at 2 pm and I reached Bangalore at 4.30 pm. And ofcourse as my title says, it was my commitment to my dad and I hope I delivered it beyond expectations. ;)
End of the day! i was ecstatically happy having experienced a mixed set of feelings! and yes! i do not like being in a city for long time...

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Government of the people, by the people and for the people!

17-Feb-09

I am sure all of you will be thinking why did I name this post with the definition given by Abraham Lincoln? Before I get to the actual point, the reason why I am writing this post is because I was reading extensively about Abraham Lincoln since yesterday as it was his 200th birthday. There were many articles on NY Times and even Washington post had many articles on his 200th year birthday. Most of the articles were drawing comparisons between Abraham Lincoln and the new 44th African-American President of United States Barack Obama. I was thrilled reading about Abraham Lincoln and his inspirational stories. I even read about articles from other country presidents on Sir Abraham Lincoln. ‘Undivided Loyalty’, ‘The path back to the Dignity’, ‘Hardworking Man’ and ‘Founding Father’; these were few of the articles of four writers describing how Abraham Lincoln influenced their countries. Well for me, just to read the title name was a great feeling and once I read the stories, I was touched, moved and inspired.
One of my friend sent a forwarded message which stated the new definition if democracy "Government BUY the people, OFF the people and FAR the people". Doesn't it sound horrible? and people just forward such messages thinking its funny. But no one admits the seriousness behind the same. Where are we heading to? is the question bouncing in my mind.
Abraham Lincoln in his Gettysburg address (one of the most quoted speeches in the United States History) came up with the definition "Government by the people, of the people and for the people" which is called as the new definition of DEMOCRACY. Just the meaning of it is inspiring and empowers everyone to live up to their respective countries' expectations there by solving problems. There are many great leaders who relegiously followed the above said statement and lived their legacies.

The whole point of my writing this post is to communicate to more people on what’s happening to the mindset of people here. Its either they have changed the definition of the government or they have started following some new definition which will support them with whatever they are doing indirectly or directly. The definition may be relevant given the amount of corruption in the we are seeing everywhere, but this will actually lead to the bad than the good. We will need to rise up to the expectations of our great leaders with the same commitment and dedication they had for their respective countries in the process of fighting for freedom and justice.

Do you have any other definition to state now?

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

A song of life…!

I sing…I sing…
Song of my life… a song for my life!

On a fine day I saw her and I smiled
Something I never felt like before
embraced me with ecstatic joy and
yes for the first time.
I sing…I sing…
Song of my life… a song for my life!

Was she the one I was looking for?
And I had no answer for my feeling
a heart beat was never so loud
and again for the first time.
I sing…I sing…
Song of my life… a song for my life!

I think of her when I sleep
I woke up in the midnight and there she was
filling my dreams with plentiful smiles
hey! are you in my life?
I sing…I sing…
Song of my life… a song for my life!

Yes I am! I hear her say…
gorgeous look glittered my face
well… it was a dream again
but I still wait for her to say.
I sing…I sing…
Song of my life… a song for my life!

All I care is all I love
and all I need is only you
you may say… no for me!
but again all I care is all I love…
I sing…I sing…
Song of my life… a song for my life!

Sri
Feb 11
21:00